Monday, September 1, 2025

White Rabbit Story: September 2025

 

Rise

 

It’s not as if my aunt and I were ever close, but I believed that at the very least I should attend her funeral.

             I hadn’t visited her house since we were kids but still, I recognised it as I drove along her street. The white plastered walls, the little bare gable window, the old slate roof. She’d lived in this hovel like a hermit in some old fairy story: alone, with hardly any possessions, and praying to some god or other that I’d never bothered to learn about.

             There was a modest crowd of people outside the house, spilling into the road. I pulled up at the kerb three doors down, locked my car, and walked the rest of the way.

             A young man with spiky hair and a lazy eye grabbed my arm. “Are you here for the viewing?”

              “The viewing?”

              “Agatha’s body? The viewing of her body.”

             Suddenly I understood. Of course, she’d be lying in state, in the old-fashioned way. Awaiting the adoration of her mourners.

             “Yes. She’s – she was my aunt.”

             The young man nodded. His smile was radiant. I guessed that he was a member of the same congregation as Aunt Agatha. The Obscure Church of Somethingorother, as my mother used to call it.

            “It won’t be long now,” said a woman holding a curiously silent baby to her breast. “Just a few minutes.”

            I was about to ask her what she meant when the crowd fell silent. All the air seemed to be sucked out of the vicinity, creating a vacuum. I felt a strange pulsing sensation in my left temple, and then a vast emptiness within my head. For a moment, I smelled juniper berries, but the scent was fleeting.

            The eyes of the people around me shone with something I didn’t recognise, a gleam of mania that made me feel uncomfortable.

            “Here she is,” someone whispered, breaking the spell. As one, they raised their eyes and looked to the sky, and then they all began to chant. Low, wordless, more of a humming sound that anything verbalised.

            As I followed their gaze, looking up at the low roof and its cracked shingles, the indistinct figure of my aunt rose slowly skyward from some point directly behind the building. I knew it was her. It couldn’t have been anyone else. She looked relaxed, as if she were simply resting, with her arms held aloft in a pose that suggested supplication.

            She hovered in place for several moments, motionless above the roof of her grubby little house, and then, entirely without warning, she rose briskly into the sky, picking up speed until she was nothing but a speck, and then nothing, against the high, wispy white clouds.

           After a polite pause, the crowd began to applaud. But the applause was subdued, polite even, as if they were wary of making too much of a racket.

           Not long after that, the crowd began to disperse. It didn’t take long; there were not that many of them.

I waited there, confused by what I’d just seen. I thought that if I waited long enough, and thought hard enough, at some point it might begin to make sense.

                It didn’t. It still doesn’t. I suppose it never will.

 

 

© Gary McMahon,

September 2025






Friday, August 15, 2025

White Rabbit Story: August 2025

 Not Us 

 

One does not need a house to be haunted. 

A loaded gun doesn’t mean you’ll be shot. 

Red on the blade isn’t always fresh. 

Sometimes decay won’t give way to rot. 

 

We’re not all in this together. 

Neither are we suffering alone. 

I am never happier than when I’m hurting. 

My favourite hobby is sawing through bone. 

 

So follow me down this one-way street 

Where we’ll swim in a lake of wine. 

My devils will dance about your feet. 

My pearls will destroy your swine. 

 

What is a house without a haunt? 

Why does an empty gun smoke? 

Even a blunt knife will carve a wound. 

Our decay is the final, funniest joke. 

 

 

 

© Gary McMahon 

August 2025 

Monday, July 21, 2025

Story Sales

Atrophy Wife will appear in issue 3 of Andy Cox's Remains, which is due out in August: 

https://remains.uk/

The House in My head will appear in issue 9 of the excellent Nightmare Abbey. Due out this October. Really pleased with these two sales. It seems that I'm on something of a roll - long may it continue.


Sunday, July 20, 2025

Short Stories Nourish My Soul

I love to read a good novel. There's something immersive about a novel; it demands your full attention and makes you work for your reward. Short stories on the other hand are sneaker beasts. They're like a quick cut from a dull blade. At first, you don't think you feel it, but then, as the wound begins to open, you're left with a lasting effect.

I adore short stories. I've always got either an anthology or a single-author collection on the go. I try to read several shorts a week, just to get my fix. Like a prose junkie, I need it, I can't live without it.

In my own writing, I always return to the short form. It's where I started - scratching out little tales in a notebook, which became larger tales as my confidence grew. I love to write short stories; writing novels is more of a love/hate relationship.

Reading short stories is one of the true joys of life. Novels fill my heart, but short stories nourish my soul.


Thursday, July 10, 2025

New Story - "Skin and Bones"

 My story Skin and Bones has been published in The Dark, a quality venue for genre fiction.




I'm really pleased with this one. It was written, submitted, published and paid for within a fortnight. The quickest, smoothest story experience I think I've ever had.

Wednesday, July 9, 2025

White Rabbit Story - July 2025

 Dead Yet

 

He supposes he should call someone to tell them that she’s dead.

That would be the proper thing to do. The right thing. The normal thing.

He doesn’t know why he didn’t think of it before, when he first found her lying on the kitchen floor, except that it could have been the shock.

                Yeah. The shock. That’s what he’ll tell them when, eventually, he does call.

                But not yet.

                He glances at her again. She’s sitting upright in the armchair they bought from an antique shop that’s been closed for years now. The bookshelves behind her look as if there are shadows clumped against the spines of the old books she collected. Her grey hair looks wispy, like webbing. Her eyes are cloudy. Her skin looks grey, like dirty sheets.

                Why did she have to die first? He’s ten years older than her; it should have been him. That’s what they’d both expected: that he would go first, and she would cope on her own. It had never entered his mind that it might be him doing the coping. Or not. Because he wasn’t. Coping, that is. Oh, no, he wasn’t.

                Coping would have been calling an ambulance, or the police, to tell them that she was dead.

                He puts down his laptop, stands and walks slowly towards her, one hand out, the other held by his side. He stops and stares at the top of her head. Doesn’t touch her. Can’t do that.

                Idly, he reads a few of the titles from the bookshelf in his immediate eyeline: Dark Grimoire, On Speaking with the Dead, A miscellany of Witches… so different from the books he owns, the ones he never lets her see – the ones he can only get from specialist dealers on the Dark Web.

                “What am I supposed to do on my own?”

                She can’t answer. He knows that. At least now she’ll never find out about those books, and the USB drives, and the external hard drive he keeps locked up in his study.

                He glances behind him, at the laptop on the little table beside the sofa.

                “I can’t do this.”

                He kneels in front of her, his face level with hers, and looks for signs of life – the life that has left her, the life that once was but will never be again.

                “I know you never loved me. I never loved you. But we were okay together, keeping each other company. Isn’t that better than some kind of romantic myth? Being together…protecting each other. Keeping secrets that nobody else would understand.”

                She turns her head. The movement is jerky; a marionette on loose strings.

                “I can’t do this,” he says again.

                Her mouth twitches into a weird smile, baring her teeth. Her eyes go dark. Black. The wig slips as she begins to stand, exposing the blotched, scabby skull beneath. She raises her hands, clutching at the air above her head. Her slipper-clad feet whisper on the carpet.

                She’s miming something, as if she were playing a game of charades. A book…it looks like she’s opening a book.

                Does she know?

                Has she seen his private library after all?

                She starts to move her fingers in a way that suggests typing, as if she’s working on an invisible keyboard.

                He looks again at the laptop, then brings his gaze back to her.

                When he blinks, she is no longer there. It was all some kind of hallucination, a mad vision brought about by stress. Awkwardly, he stands and turns around, walks across the room towards the kitchen. A cup of tea, that’s what he needs. Weak and sweet. Just like the subjects of the photos in the books and film clips he enjoys so much.

                She’s lying on the kitchen floor. Her hands twisted into claws. Her wig tilted at an obscene angle. Her mouth is open, showing brown-stained teeth. Her eyes are as black as the liquorice sweets he always buys her for Christmases and birthdays. Clutched in her hands, and pressed tightly against her chest, is a dusty old book whose title he cannot make out.

                Is the book hers, or is it one of his?

                His vision begins to blur. His throat is dry. He can smell something old and foul and deathless on the air.

                She pushes herself upwards, bending at the waist. Sitting motionless on the lino and still clutching the book to her old, saggy chest.

                What is this?

                Some kind of hallucination…a vision brought on by stress…

                Or perhaps a premonition…

                “Now,” she growls, her voice the sound of rocks grinding together. “Where were we?”

 

© Gary McMahon

 

Saturday, July 5, 2025

On Mental Health & Writing

 This week has been a bad one. I've struggled with my mental health since last weekend - anxiety, depression, all that lovely stuff. I won't go into any details, but I've just felt surrounded by death, by endings, and the state of the world right now has fed into all that darkness and negativity and pushed me down into a big black hole. 

On the plus side, I feel a lot better today. I feel as if I can put last week behind me and push forward. And I think I know the reason why.

I wrote.

I wrote my way out of that big black hole.

It sounds simple, but it isn't. Writing these days doesn't come easily to me. When it does come, though, it's like a gift.

I've never really excelled at anything in life - always been a bit of a plodder, "just about good enough" at most things but never quite mastering anything. I'm good at my job, I think I'm an okay husband and father (I have my flaws, of course, as we all do), but I'm not "excellent" at any of those things. Just decent. Okay, Unexceptional.

Then there's the writing.

Writing is the one thing I feel I am good at - an area where I have excelled. My work isn't commercially successful, I haven't won any major awards, and it gets ignored in most general discussions of horror literature. But none of that matters. Writing is my attempt at making sense of the world. My writing has integrity, and, to me, that's the only thing that matters. Art has to be honest or it isn't art at all. Which is fine. I enjoy mindless a bit of pablum as much as the next person, but even though I consume it (and love it and champion it and need it in my life), I don't want to create it. 

So last week, I managed to write my way out of a bad place. The story I came up with is incredibly fucking dark, but it means something. It's valid. It's personal. It did not exist in the world before I created it. That means something. It's valuable.